694 miles from my empty home to your loving arms, tree still up kids all gone, me and my computer all I have physical today.

But, I have something much more powerful then all of that, I have you baby, I have contentment in my heart for now.

Contentment that I have the love I always needed or wanted, contentment that alone time is nearing the end I pray.

I just want you to know, that this poem is sucking my mind cant write, my heart wants to cry, my chest wants to go pow.

Emotional stress, from not holding you, brings physical pain to me these days, soon I will hold you and make you smile.

Until that day hold my heart and put it together piece by piece, so it is fully healed the day my hand touches your face.

It is amazing how much I love you and how I do believe in us your heart Is in my hands I kiss it daily, finding you only trial.

I was a fallen man, last Christmas wanted to die, had those thoughts yet this week, saved by feeling love from you and his Grace.

Our presents to each other, unwrapped early our eyes on each other, fixed together, joy was truly seen, your love for me.

Confident in the words you speak, your love is true, my walls are down, my biggest present to you no more wall.

Look in to my eyes, see the compassion and the lingering hurt, know I only live for you, please don’t you see?

Sparkles my favorite physical gift, hold her tight, but your vulnerability the greatest gift given we shall not fall.

365 days to go till our new family has a special Christmas, two adults and three of the greatest kids in our lives.

Please no days of absence until that day, I need to feel you daily. Christmas promise never hurt you I do swear.

I will cherish you my Christmas angel, every day build you up, make you mine, I own you, our love forever thrives.

One final promise please make to me as I to you, we will focus on and try to get rid of all the things we call fear.